just keep swimming...

soooo, the dog's spayed, we're all back home safe and sound, and the president of the rabbit organization resigned while i was gone... life keeps spinning.

it's funny how easy it is to believe the worst of each other. how easy it is to speak poorly of people we hardly know. i know what i'm talking about here, because i can be a really big asshole sometimes. so the rabbit organization is in disarray. people whose only commonality is a love for little fuzzy four-leggeds are just ripping each other to shreds. not that different from the way rabbits behave when they don't like each other...except we're humans and our brains are bigger and i'd hope we'd at least call off the fur pulling before someone gets really hurt. but we all have such different threshholds for pain, you just never know how far some will go... the challenge for me is to remain positive that things will work out. that the higher good in everyone will eventually override the human desire to be the one who's "right"... that our need to get our personal needs met can be replaced with the need to have the group's needs met. to have faith that the two aren't really that different... we shall see. this all sounds pretty lofty to me and there are days i know i probably won't be able to pull it off. (those are the days i will keep myself busy and off of the computer)

i made it through last week. now only one more week til my ultrasound on my breast. maybe then we'll start getting some answers and just GET ON WITH IT...whatever IT is.... i hope it'll be easier to breathe...although probably i should start exercising again to help that out, too... hehe

i think we're going to move. i like the name of the place we're moving to...sounds kind of buddhist... i'm just following the circles of light...

ok, gotta run and find a rhythm for today...
peace