back to the grind and my body, she teaches me

it is almost 11:30am, and i'm still here in front of the computer preparing stuff for the day. i ran out of lesson planning sheets, so i had to print some off, and, well, now, logically, i'm here blogging...

the kids have played chess, enacted some transformers on their track set with their hot wheels, and navigated some issues concerning games that involve one person winning and one person losing and how much fun it is to win and how much it sucks to lose and how maybe, since we're not doing so well at the losing part today, we could find some games that don't involve either.... so transformers it is. when all else fails, make it us against the bad guys in the world....we will win every time. (well, if the battle ground exists in young imaginations....)

i have a load of laundry to fold and poor N...he stuck a load in the wash saturday that sat forgotten until last night, when i ran it through the wash again. (when you make your own soap, it sours a little more quickly) well, i forgot to dry it. and i think probably all of his scrubs were in that load. so i think he had to get up and dry a set of scrubs at, oh, i don't know, 5:30 this morning? and he was still pleasant telling me good-bye. laughing because sometimes, i'm so sleepy, i tell him good night instead of have a good day...

e and i slept in a bit. played and hugged and laughed this morning before we finally got up to pee. he's so funny. we woke up to lots of rain. it sounds quite dramatic on our metal roof. but it really was a lot of rain. i knew a cold front was blowing in, i just had no idea it was bringing rain. so we've been outside a few times to marvel at how cold it is, and smile, and be excited because we like the cold....

i think i have a yeast infection on the skin that folds above my belly button but below my breasts...kind of between the two. i'm not sure it's yeast, but it sure itches like yeast...and it gets red and splotchy. anyway... i appreciate that as stressful as the last month has been that i haven't gotten sick. but my face is breaking out a bit and then there's this stomach thing going... so i will watch what i eat. (i'm afraid i've gotten a bit out of control on the sugar lately...) i will get a little more protective of myself. it'll be alright. (notice how i talked about a fold in my belly without even flinching? i'm pretty sure it's the gray hair making me a little more grounded....hehe)

ok, to the grind that is my life. i really do love it. well, deep down i love it. on the surface, i look more like i'm accepting it, maybe... :) i also need to run today. i think i might open some of these windows....

have a peaceful day, world...