my bad mood

yep, i have one. it's going on right now... i am drinking a riesling, trying to ignore it, but it's there...it is... hmmmm.... sit with it or try to move it? i just don't know yet... some lyrics i was listening to tonight that made me aware of this stirring thing inside of me...

Leeds
It's dark at four PM in Leeds the steeples pierce the skylight till the last of it bleeds The absent sound of another day as it recedes into the shadows until it's nothing Fax papers slipped under the hotel room door like food for the prisoner or the prospect to the whore Well fed and halfway drunk I ache myself for more until I'm shadows of myself until I'm nothing Sixteen black churches burning on the TV all the way from Texas to Tennessee a politician locks my eye and says to me there is no crisis here there's no conspiracy I crave inertia every move made so I can stop Whatever this madness is in me spinning like a top on a bed of anxiety over a deep dark drop down into nothingness into withoutyouness Was it ever so evil creep like ivy, toe hold on the stronger half of nature's dichotomy Beating back a path through nothing more than pure insistence Until here becomes the distance Hold my head love I'm sick tonight find the open hole and press your finger there will all your might before the last ounce of my spirit bleeds onto the pristine sheets of the hotel bed in Leeds

yeah, it's by the girls...(uhm, that's indigo girls....)
peas