breathing and focusing

maybe i'm the biggest obstacle to my own happiness... (i'm going to leave that one alone for now)

i feel a little better today...a little more relaxed, less tight. i think i slept well and for some reason, the coffee tastes particularly well today. we've got a little schoolwork to do, then i'm going to try to run (although i've had the worst case of hiccups this morning and don't want to HURT myself running with these damn hiccups), and then we go rock climbing. soccer is later... i love tuesdays. they're pre-destined...or at least heavily planned...and they don't require much thinking on my part. yep, my kind of day...

so my friend patsy had a miscarriage yesterday. it really hurts somewhere deep inside when i say that... she'll try the iui again. and she has a healthy partner that can carry future babies, but i think she really wanted to try to carry one herself. we've been burning a couple of candles for her...

e was a dinosaur when he woke up this morning. how children do this, i really don't understand...but as his little eyes were waking, he began making his dinosaur noises. i can't even remember my name first thing in the morning, and he does something so damn cute and just decides to be a dinosaur first thing... so he communicated through dinosaur grunts the first fifteen minutes of today, until o finally said, "baby dinosaur, i bet you want some milk..." which got a very affirmative grunt from e, and they went off to pour glasses of milk. i kind of felt like a schmuck...i mean, i'm the mom and it didn't even occur to me that even baby DINOSAURS would want some milk first thing. but it's ok, i guess, since o had my back this time...

i know i need to go start the day. but i feel so calm right now...why challenge that? haha ok, ok...off to start the day. but i'm checking in tonight!!!
peace