sigh....a-choo!!

today is a day of nothing. well, there was soccer this morning. and dropping off a gift and picking up some of my plants. (yes, i've been here three months and am just now picking up my plants...what's your point?) n mowed grass and i've made chicken and dumplings, popcorn, and oatmeal cookies. oh, and we took N lunch at the hospital earlier. but other than that, it's a day of nothing...

it's a good thing it's a day of nothing, because i also have a small cold. well, it's more of a pulsing cold. sometimes it's small, and other times it's bigger. but it comes and goes like that...like a pulse. yeah, it's a pulsing cold...

my kids are playing this video game. all four of them. n and e teamed up against o and s. they howl and scream and laugh their asses off while playing this game. it's hilarious and as much as i really hate the games (yes, i thought before i used the word hate, and it was appropriate), it almost makes me just really not like them. (but i still hate them)

last thing...o's game. they lost today...6 to 3. last season we played in a league called the fun, fair, positive soccer league. it had more rules for the parents than for the kids. this is a different league. the parents are a little more free...a little less restricted. the coaches, too. it wasn't THAT different. well, there was that one time that our coach yelled out, "don't you blame garrett (our defender)!! that goal was shot from midfield, which is YOUR ZONE!!!" he did not say this to my son. my son wasn't even on the field and i'm glad for that because i don't think i would've liked him speaking to my 7 year old like that... but maybe? i don't know. i can see the possibility looming of finding out, though. but the coach is a good guy. i think he knew he looked silly at that moment. like he was coaching so LOUDLY for the kids? it was obvious it was because he was mad at the moment that we were losing, which is human...i guess. (i mean, we were getting pummelled at the moment) but the kids just didn't seem that stressed about it. and they're human, too, right?

i have a post inside me about the different natures we have... about how our goals lead us different places, to do things in different ways. and how we really have no need to judge anyone against what is driving us, because no one is driven by the same things. we may have some similarities, but we are ultimately unique, and need to remember that and respect it. just because someone seems A LOT more different from us than someone else, doesn't make them any more or less.

i watched "joseph, king of dreams" today. maybe i am simple-minded, but that disney cartoon kills me every time i see it. it makes me cry. i want to buy the soundtrack. it is beautiful. and i just kept thinking about how jacob tries to make his other sons be nice to joseph, without ever explaining anything and always treating joseph so much better than the others...unashamedly so. and how i would've chosen to change much in those interactions, but how it all came together in rather epic events. i don't know that God predestined it, but joseph singing, "you know better than i" kills me every time. and it's good. because there's something in me that needs to be a little weaker...

i'm going to see the indigo girls next weekend. here's another lyric...

darkness has a hunger that's insatiable
and lightness has a call that's hard to hear

maybe that's why i want things a little less busy and a little more quiet...so i can hear better...
peace