resolution shmesolution

this is concerning conflicts...

i don't really feel "resolution shmesolution" about conflict resolution, i mean not the part of me i want to carry forward. but that little troll i carry around in my trunk sure is grumbling "resolution shmesolution..."

thirteen year old is sooooo grouchy these days. and just craps all over eight year old. and then when nine year old gets involved, he craps all over eight year old, which i don't necessarily blame him for...i mean if the options are to get crapped on by a thirteen year old or take part in the already inevitable crapping upon of an eight year old, i'd probably choose the path of least resistance, too. especially if said eight year old pisses me off every once in awhile and doesn't seem to give a shit. but that doesn't make any of this right...and sometimes this crap will get so carried away before i realize i need to intervene, that intervention is overwhelming and something i tend to avoid when i am already low on resources... and this month, seeing my spouse and co-parent for three hours a day max (awake) is making me feel a bit low in resources for some reason...

especially when spouse and i have our own freaking conflict going on...over nothing, really....fueled by feelings that probably had nothing to do with what we were attempting to discuss. ack! i'm frustrated all over again just typing this... but it was funny. the kids, who were arguing pretty much all day today, were trying so hard to be quiet (without losing their arguments, of course) so they could hear what dh and i were talking about. i would've laughed...if i hadn't been so frustrated otherwise....

maybe i'm just grumpy because i stayed up painting until three o'clock this morning.... my hallways look delicious...

oh, i hope bedtime comes quickly...
peace