Wednesday, December 17, 2008

praying and stuff

so the good meme was, well, good. that's the most euphoric pms week i've ever had...seriously. but i did crash a bit. and i've had some pretty sarcastic, angry, whiny, mopey-ish posts brewing the past couple of days, but i really think so much of life is about your perception, about your attitude that i just pushed through it, so to speak. and while those posts may have been funny, they just were at the expense of things i wasn't willing to sacrifice for a laugh.

my spouse and i were actually arguing about this the other day...about whether it's okay to hurt some one's feelings if they know you love them. as far as i can tell, he believes it's inevitable. so much so that, again, as far as i can tell, he doesn't do much to try to stop it. i understand people need to have trust...but what about earning it? i understand the value of a thick skin...but unless you're the one growing it, don't you run the risk of being a bully? and what about empathy? kindness? you know...stuff like that. i don't know...we didn't reach any major conclusions.

but i guess i throw this in for myself to illustrate that what i ask of myself and i also wish to see in those that are closest to me...and i wonder sometimes if my perception were different, if life would be a little different, too. (ha, the dalai lama has me thinking in something like circles, only not so pretty, eh?)

so here's a song i've heard a few times this week. i think i've posted it before and it still makes me cry, but it is one of my favorites...


peace

2 comments:

LanaTron said...

It takes a lot of chutzpah, you know, mama, but sometimes when we just push through, even if we're in the dark, that next spot of light will show up. (Did I get that metaphor correct?...that one from Anne Lamott?...I've been really bad about screwing up metaphors lately when I'm trying to say something clever...nearly 40, ya know, brain not working quite as well these days)

Talk to you soon...

earthmama said...

your almost forty year old brain works fine, mama...it's just full up of wisdom, that's what's making you feel slower. and yes, you got the metaphor right. i've been telling myself to appreciate the shadows and the whole of the veil revealed (another lamott metaphor)...otherwise there'd just be all that god damned light! (yes, that's the rest of her quote) :)