perspective

so, i have a friend whose life started so completely falling apart last night, all at one time... and now i find myself unable to settle on any one issue in my life enough to draw anything from it, reflection, a laugh, a good old fashioned harrumph....

part of it is that my friend caused a little of this for herself through choices that she made, although that does not in any way mean she deserves the totality of this clusterfuck she is faced with. the other part, i think, stems from the two hot dogs i ate for lunch and the hypertensive episode that i am probably experiencing...

i am supposed to go see anne lamott tonight and am trying to stay in a somewhat festive mood for that. but i am really overwhelmed by how crazily fucked up my friend's life has become in a matter of twenty-four hours and i'm just not one of those people who feel untouchable because of some decision or combination of decisions i've made that are so right. it can be a scary world out there and we're all pretty ballsy folks for participating...
peace