choices

i am struck by the thought that i try so hard to make the "right" choice when, in fact, there are so many choices to be made.... i also laugh at myself when i hear myself say "but i had no choice"...i laugh on the inside, of course, but it is really a rather ridiculous statement. there are always choices. i do need to keep on practicing stillness, so that when i don't think i have a choice, i can see that i always do. because only when i act freely am i able to take complete responsibility for what i do. if i didn't have a choice, how responsible could i be? but if i chose something, then i am responsible, right?

there are more places i want to go with this, but i'm feeling kind of vulnerable these days. which is fine...i will still survive. (chuckle) but i have a lot to do and don't have the time to wrestle with myself about what to put out here right now...it is my choice and i'm making it sorta carefully this morning.

but i will put in here that my car was having issues last week. after much driving around and having a little work done here and the bulk of the work done there, i got it back and four of the air conditioning vents didn't work. which was ok, but it occurred to me that they worked before i took the car in and perhaps the work the dealership did on the car caused the vents to stop working. i called and asked even though two men in my life said that the dealership would never take responsibility for the vents not working and would charge me to fix them. (well, the vents weren't necessary, so i wasn't going to pay, but i digress) i took the car in, they immediately took it back, and in less than ten minutes, they brought it back to me and said they'd reconnected the vacuum hose they'd dislodged when they were replacing my ignition coil. they even thanked me for bringing it in to let them fix. that was a lot of choices...choices for the men at the dealership, choices for the men in my life, and of course, my own choices. it has put quite the bounce in my step today.

peace