mystery

i listened to this song on the treadmill today. mystery by the indigo girls. (i really do listen to other music, i swear...it's just been the indigo girls that hit the deepest for the last two decades...) anyway...there's this line in the chorus...oh hell, here's the whole song...

each time you'd pull down the driveway
i wasn't sure when i would see you again
yours was a twisted blind sided highway
no matter which road you took then

oh you set up your place in my thoughts
moved in and made my thinking crowded
now we're out in the back with the barking dogs
my heart the red sun
your heart the moon clouded

i could go crazy on a night like tonight
when summer's beginning to give up her fight
and every thought's a possibility
and the voices are heard but nothing is seen
why do you spend this time with me
maybe an equal mystery

so what is love then is it dictated or chosen
(handed down and made by hand)
does it sing like the hymns of 1000 years
or is it just pop emotion
(handed down and made by hand)
and if it ever was there and it left
does it mean it was never true
and to exist it must elude
is that why i think these things of you

i could go crazy on a night like tonight
when summer's beginning to give up her fight
and every thought's a possibility
and the voices are heard but nothing is seen
why do you spend this time with me
may be an equal mystery

but you like the taste of danger
it shines like sugar on your lips
and you like to stand in the line of fire
just to show you can shoot straight from you hip
there must be a 1000 things you would die for
i can hardly think of two
but not everything is better spoken aloud
not when i'm talking to you

oh the pirate gets the ship and the girl tonight
breaks a bottle to christen her
basking in the exploits of her thief
she's a very good listener

maybe that's all that we need
is to meet in the middle of impossibility
we're standing at opposite poles
equal partners in a mystery
(handed down and made by hand)
we're standing at opposite poles
equal partners in a mystery

words and music by emily saliers
copyright 1994 bmi virgin music inc and godhap music (bmi)

so i was all over that song. the mystery of attraction, of relationships...the duality, the opposite poles equal partners in a mystery image...heart the red sun, heart the moon clouded. yeah. that. what they said....

i had a lovely weekend. a mysterious weekend, too.

we celebrated the confirmation of my nephew, which at this point in my life seems just like commitment to the biggest mystery of all. we celebrated the birthday of another nephew on a glorious day in austin...i love that city. my sister fell off the face of the earth and then returned...that was happy. my children spent two nights away and then returned...that was also very happy. i talked to a friend on the phone i hadn't spoken to in awhile....and that was happy, too. my mama cyber-tribe was there... and then there were also the mamas i shined my shoes for, right? well, that was ok... but i did it, which made me happy....snort

but equal parts, right?...

i already mentioned my friend that emailed me for help with a problem of hers. another friend had to put her mama in a hospice home. and as tough as the year has been for this friend already, it looks like she'll lose her mama here on earth, too. i'm sure her mama will stick around in energy for a very long time...she just has one of those tough spirits...but i know my friend will miss her when her body goes...and for that, i ache. i know she will be pragmatic in how she handles it...but i know under the layers of protection she's laid, a tender part of her is sobbing. so i'm sending some love and healing there...join me if you feel so inclined...because you know, every thought's a possibility.

mystery...
peace