patience

so i've been waiting for something to "come to me" today that i would blog about... i don't think anything has come, but i'll let you know if i figure something out...

but it occurs to me that patience is a large part of this. i get so anxious sometimes for my thoughts to line up and show me something i can play with, write about, talk about, whatever. and then there are other times i get so anxious for my thoughts to quiet down, be still, go to sleep. i'm serious--it is like parenting myself. and this is why i have learned to be a kinder, gentler, more respectful parent. out of my own self-preserving instinct. that doesn't sound so noble, does it? but i don't feel like blogging about that....

we had a really long day today. part of the reason our days have been lasting so long is that we're really not starting them very early. we get up early enough. but that's where our paths diverge. i start coffee, eat breakfast... now, after i've done that, they're just then starting breakfast. what did they do while i was eating? i think they're playing chess and working on dungeons and dragons characters, but i'm not sure. so they eat and while they're eating, "well, i guess i'll just go check email..." so then an hour later, we're all still in pj's, i'm finished on the computer, they're reading or watching pbs kids or playing another game of chess or back to work on d&d....and lunch is in half an hour! so i think it's about damned time we got some work done!!! so we do stuff, get caught up, usually don't eat til 2pm or later... we're just starting our days too late. but that's really all i feel like blogging about that...

did i mention my car was smoking this weekend? i will be driving quite a bit this week. but i think i've already blogged about that...

dh and i have been talking a lot about hsing through high school. it's intimidating... but there's a classical-ish school here that will supplement (read: take on stuff i don't feel like doing for the oldest and give me time to still have fun with the littles) n's "high school" stuff... oh yeah, every time i think about it, i feel the need for quotation marks. (my head bounces a little when i put the "quote" fingers up, too) this is probably something i'll blog a whole lot about....

oh, and my dh just walked in touting e's almost emphatic belief in the blood pressure cuff as a medical healing miracle. this is one of the ways that e keeps us all moving forward because we're laughing too hard to be put off by whatever lies ahead. i took my blood pressure the other day because it had just been feeling kind of high. dh, in all his medical wisdom and experience, doesn't even look at my numbers and says, "let me take mine." (jerk...but i'm over it...haha) so a few times since, e tells me his leg hurts and he needs "this thing" and brings me the blood pressure machine. anyway...i guess it doesn't look that funny in words, but knowing how many times e has come in and casually mentioned something that might could benefit from "this thing"...well, dh walking in here and saying, "man, e's really convinced that blood pressure cuff is magic medicine" well, it just cracked me up.

ok, that's my blog for the day. time to go find some more patience...
peace